Not just for him, but to everyone around me. My instincts didnt tell him to leave, even after learning about the strangers he met over the course of our relationship. I didnt mind at first, but his mom started to tell me that his ex would always be his wife no matter what. How I treat my boy friend. Permission to publish granted to GoodTherapy.org. Within 4 years of arrival I caught my husband sitting in a parked car, kissing a 15 year-old neighbor whose family we had befriended. Youre being crazy all Ive done is try to talk to her. Part of me says hes just gone too far this time. Her response discouraged me. Being around them is oftentimes unbearable because our love for them is so strong yet we can't express them. She is denying it and he admits it. (He says she listens.) The problem is this new life makes me feel anxious and insecure. I want her to know I am a new person but she has a wall up around her and wont let me in, I accept it was all my fault and will do anything to repair the damage if I can but I am fighting a losing battle. Not a shared bottle of champagne to toast to our future. He became verbally abusive and it then reached to a physical point towards the end. but recently, within the last few months I have made so many huge mistakes by saying so many hurtful things and though I am deeply ashamed and regretful of my actions and my hurtful words, I know that sometimes people cant ever be forgiven and cant ever be loved again. He has walked away from all of them. They love each other. Tell him how you're feeling. He started applying for new jobs to return back home but he didnt get them. Therefore, it would be natural for him to be skeptical of your changes if you havent done this (you dont indicate what you did to work through them). Read self-help books for it or seek affordable therapy. I told her that it wasnt that I couldnt live without here, it was that I wanted to share my life with her. My boyfriend and I have been together for almost two years and purchased a house together about six months ago. If this is something where the two of you have remained together and do in all honesty still love each other, then I definitely think that it is possible to fall in love with that same person all over again. It may seem that the person you love hates you right now, but more often than not, they still care deep down. But as I said, he wont show me much emotion. However, unfortunately, i fell into a deep depression where I just did not feel and act like myself, there was the unfortunate symptom of never feeling happy. Time will bring that dream partner and it will be worth all the wait. She also says that it does not mean she wont stay with me but just now she is confused on how to feel. There is emotional, mental, and sexual neglect. From this list you can click to view our members full profiles and contact the therapists themselves for more information. She finally came to the conclusion that the money didnt make her happy because she said he was selfish. Start by what you tell YOURSELF: I am a wonderful person. I do love her still but I am tired of back and forth. And furthermore, if you could take him back then he should be mature enough to take you back. She doesnt want to be mad at her parents, or hear the counselor say that they were bad parents. Thank you, I would love some help with my tale of woe. We fought a lot about money and being broke and our intimate life became non-existent and problems in the bedroom because how much we fought and never settled anything. I work mornings and he works midnights meaning we just passed each other by never being able to really actually be together. But there has been a lot of good too. Once he calmed down I was finally able to tell him why I sent that text. If I did, I simply talked briefly because she was asking for money basically. Dr. Deb with all this being the case can I prove to him that was not truly me and I can make him happy. I ended up realizing I wasnt just angry, I was fearful. I was asking and asking him to give our marriage a chance and Ill show him, but each time he said no he cant or no he doesnt want to try to save the marriage. Our four conversations have been long and we laugh and joke like we used to, but I know the relationship has forever changed and she has stitched her heart back together while mine is still raw. And sometimes, you can get the personal part caught up in the middle of things. My ex got mixed up with prescription drugs. First he said he wanted a divorce now hes not sure. Telling someone it is over and not meaning it, on the other hand, is not mature. Usually systemic family therapists at a doctoral level would be best for the kind of situation you describe. Ive suggested therapy but he refuses. I would say hes left me a total of 15 or more times within our 10 year relationship. Give that effort and love to your child. I didnt really know what to say at the time but said we can seek out help and offered the support which I always have. Anyone can fight back. Im still talking to him despite my Friends advice. Thats 45 minutes walk. I expected that after three years, and his wrongdoing, that he would be a little more apt to showing me that he truly does want to be with me but it seems like he doesnt. we are 9 months back together, he has taken 4 trips by himself with his cousins and friends, i found out he was doing cocaine with his aunt on my birthday and he recently went out and stayed who knows where because he did not come. And i was getting some things off the laptop that I gave to him. It's also exhausting for the couple, but they're . I was so in love with this man, more so than I was with my husband. After talking it through a lot, I decided to give it a second go. She finding hard to belive that I am going to change or helping myself at the moment. What concerns me right now is the fact that it had been three weeks since I spoke to her and her anger and rage only seems to be growing and she said that shes okay with it even though she knows that it may be unhealthy to be holding on to it. When my wife told me, I was devestated but I knew I wanted to try and fix the relationship. He was rude, impatiend and miserable with me. I would rather see YOU give him the oral sex dressed up in a way that excites your and his imagination. I dont want to hear you should have never done that in the first place. I opened up to this girl who had been my GF for about 6 months. A year from then I thought hes moved forward but he then got back to the topic of my ex and continued to be upset. Our was not only child but freezing cold weather on Wednesday morning. But then around 4 months ago I got sexually assaulted while out with a girlfriend and it left me very emotionally apart. In my search for answers/help I found your blog. My husbands reasoning was better education opportunities for our daughters. A self that is very similar to yours! I never regretted . He feels like I dont show him that I love him and it makes me sad because I do but I know deep down its the hurt thats caused me to become so guarded and cold towards him. This will NOT go away, so your boyfriend needs short-term but very intense therapy directed to correcting this BEFORE you can forgive him. She knew the situation between us and I had my suspicions, but when i asked either of them, i was told to stop being paranoid. He was becoming distant the past couple months, and now hes numb. Im not quite sure if its simply because he just decided he no longer cared one day or because he has problems other than our relationship that are managing to affect it in a negative matter. Now, I wont hear from him until almost the end of the day and thats it. With all these, she doesnt apappreciate anything I did. Im falling out of love with him and I dont think I wanna be with him anymore. He has given me no reason to distrust him since. Generally in cases like this BOTH people have something to learn about life. WHAT AMINNOT GETTING? He is not a bad person at all, and I believe that his mistakes are just a manifestation of his past. Im an ENFJ. If you are working on yourself and so is he, it could still take lots of time. After years of arguments and not being heard, belittled, berated, and just made to feel worthless by my husband I packed the kids up and moved across the country and filed for divorce. She finally left me on September 5th. He ended up dumping the girl and texting me to meet up and talk. I cant blame anyone for this but myself. Nelson Mandela It is harder to hate a person after you have prayed for them. I was recently in a relationship for the past 5 years. hes very quiet and antisocial, doesnt like the neighbours etc, i love them all! He felt that I condescended to him a lot, said the worst things to him at the worst times, and maybe the right thing at the wrong times, he does not feel I was supportive in the way he needed me to be when he most needed it. So i refused to give her simple and straight forward answer. That is what I mean by not being needy and dependent. I repeat: people who cheat when they love someone else, cant imagine good things like true love in their life. So she came to my place and looks big. I know I cant make him stay but how can I prove to him that I am serious and that I dont ever want to hurt him again? Ive started with a new therapist and I really feel like she will be able to help me. All good. 3 years later Ive kept it to myself and never told him. Without more details on your situation, this is all I can say. That is not always a good thing. Thanks, Dr. Debb. I acted a bit insane but its because every time I try to talk about us, she bring a up old stuff. Hi Brittany Dr. Deb, My answer is: Feeling can come back, but the process is backwards from the way it was the first time. Aside from thatwe are friends and I would like to at least help him see that not everybody leaves and not everybody is out to use and hurt you. We are both very dependent on each other because we started dating when we were 16/17 years old. People (including him) will see your effort and you will reap the love and success from your efforts in other areas of your life. If you realized your decision was admittedly selfish, lead with that. I introduced my self to her and all I get is an attitude from her and she makes it very uncomfortable. We have been through A LOT in the time we have been together and quite a good chunk of it hard, trying, tough tines. So we stayed together again, and talked about counseling but we never went through on the idea. Hi Shan I have cheated on this amazing creature not once but four times over the course of our relationship causing me to loose friends, loose his trust, and respect for myself as a human being. But you do need that communication; it is not an unreasonable request at all. I realized eventually that through out the course of the relationship I was being emotionally abusive towards her in my actions and reactions. Do I just need more time? He should have come to you with the problems instead. I genuinely love this man. Eventually I told him Im done either the verbal abuse ends now or we stop dating. I trusted him. Neglect. If youre looking for a counselor that practices a specific type of therapy, or who deals with specific concerns, you can make an advanced search by clicking here: https://www.goodtherapy.org/advanced-search.html. Otherwise you have to wait.I could not even answer this. We both have feillings for one another. Unfortunately the job requires very long hauls. Hi guys, Sorry so long. I knew there was a problem and she was evading me about it. I have asked her if she still loves me and that who would win in a contest and she had told me that I would win. She said yesterday give me space chris and Ill contact you when Im ready I made a simple reply by saying will do I promise I wanted to say I promise cause I not even going to be first to txt her or make any contact I I do promise and I hope that promise will also build that trust again but I know I have a lot of work to do. I finally went back to the US and told him I wanted out if the marriage. Mark. When she tells me to leave her alone, does that mean she hates me and going to leave? I guess I just want her to miss me and for her to realize that she should to be pushing me away. So my girlfriend got her license taken away because of an auto incident. I need to stop blaming him for everything and take responsibility for my failings. Betrayal can come from manipulating someone to get ahead. But nothing more. She obviously has no time for me. I so crushed and heartbroken right now. I was sad and hurt. 9: Enjoy an aquarium The best gift you can give to a newly engaged couple-send them to marriage counselling. I realize that Im making this about me by even asking this question, and that I need to make this about him right nowwhat he needs to try and heal. My spouse is trying to be patient, but I still dont think he really gets the emotional toll his affair had on me, even though it was several years ago. Give him the time he needs or this will not work. When hes with me I try to see that he wants to be with me but at the same time I just want to go to bed and be left alone. Clients need both. Its Maria Dr. Deb and I answered your question about how could he have GROWN TO NOT LIKE ME? I need some help. Financial security is not enough to make you stay with someone your not in love with. Work on yourself in that way. Because of his issues, I feel like I am on a constant roller coaster ride. I am on the opposite side of the fence from you. It saddens me that our children have a father who wants to be around them, but cant stand to be around them when they are near. I have begun to change my routines, I am trying to bring the romance back, I am trying to change the way I think, and I have my first counseling session set up for this Friday. I said no we need to talk it out. But not even giving it a go is just ridiculous! But I didnt listen. She has also been studying out of the country for the past 2 years. But I feel where Ive grown and changed, he hasnt. He says he has no attraction to her at all he just wasnt thinking. I have since told her that I have forgiven her (although Im still trying to reconcile my true feelings). After coming off a day of not really talking to each other, she come home and said she doesnt feel the same way as she did when we first started going out and that she feels Im holding her back. Letting him do you like this is letting him run over you. Also, I applaud you for wanting to give a stable home to his children. The fact that he is back and forth with you tells me that. True, men tend not to think too hard about themselves, but you know what? According to all known laws of aviation, Not Secure there is no way a bee should be able can talk And now you'll start talking! Sometimes I would just be short over minor issues. At this point I do not know what to do. The plan was for it to be a purely physical thing with no emotion. And what did you find inside your partners heart and soul? The counseling should be goal-oriented, meaning, you should be given specific tools to rebuild your sense of self-esteem and overcome the destructive messages that you have inside. The first 3 years were great. Well, I did worry and it put a breach between us. How can I get him to trust me and show him that Im not going to hurt him. But it also takes honesty from you to them. My question is how long does it normally take? She is devastated and doesnt want anything to do with me. I cant forgive him and Im not in love with him anymore. So what does your therapist think? My world is up side down. But we been talking and he told me he got some back and he felt better about things. but few days ago we broke up. I just want her to know Im a actually doing something for myself. I feel so emotionally confused, angry, hurt, spiteful & a collection of other feelings. What do I do and how do I make her be in love with me again and be on the same page, not just me bleeding my heart out with nothing in return? I told him I was tired of the lies. I dont know if I believe him or not though. Ive been with my boyfriend for 1 year and 3 months. Thank you so much. Hes the first person Ive truly loved and treated me correctly. Your spouse opens the door to intimacy when you know that he/she has heard you. That said, I would not think this will work while he has someone else in the wings. I have been with my boyfriend for nearly two years now. as he texted him on facebook. A person in emotional turmoil is not who he really IS. Before you can explain it to your boyfriend, you need to explain it to yourself. He hated the arguements and most of all he felt I had betrayed his trust. I see absolutely no reason to keep up conversation with her anymore. I realize what I did was horrible and have apologized over and over.he came to a counselor once but refused to go back. If I am right, then for sure counseling is in order. I am sorry I was not able to respond last year to your question. She is the only woman I have ever wanted to grow old with, and she is telling me that she might not want that anymore. Hi Aran He firmly believed that I went to volunteer in a different country to find someone else and leave him. How can i handle this please any one any good advise or DR beb any suggestion is a way to put this relation back again. Now since his arrest I had the day before kicked him out of my apartment because I did not want to go through it again even though I love him with all my heart I gave him my whole heart I cannot continue to go through this with him he needs to do this on his own. ), but deep down, Im still really hurt that he set me aside like that. He loves me and wont say leave or hes done. It . I have no one to talk to, and I had to let it out. I am angry he was not honest about his true feelings the last few months. Dr. Deb could you please help me out with my post from Sept 10! How do I know which decision is the one my heart is telling me to go towards, what is the best way to figure out if this relationship is going to be OK? I find it selfish on his part to pursue my wife knowing how conflicted and hurt she is, he knows from my lone text asking for him to give us space and his knowledge of how this situation can affect children caught up in it. But a genuine person has a look in their eyes that cant be faked, and a voice thats full of love. I think I know whats going on. Although being a part the past couple of days Im not feeling the love I had for him before, I feel its fading and even though I know I want him in my life I cant fight the urge that I think Im slowly losing feelings but I dont want to let him go. Its hard to see things turning around but I really want it to. I thought it was VERY MUCH FAIR considering that I could have made him divide everything in half and he would have had to pay for my attorney as well as pay me alimony but I am not stupid enough to think money or material things make you happy but apparently $$$ is the cause of his parents hatred towards me and the fact that he will avoid the whole truth. So you grow apart. Harry Emerson Fosdick. Since the proposal and my 30th birthday i became more restless and since i took off the ring he just ignored the whole thing while i tried to get therapy for myself and get him with me for couples therapy which lasted only a few times before a proposal was made that we seperate for a trial seperation and see what happens. I forgave him after some days, tried to work at it again. We want to grow old together and have the same goals in life but lately I have been questioning my love which makes me quite upset.I know deep down inside that we are soul mates. You need to look nice and be comfortable in the clothes you are wearing because you have to be yourself throughout the date. I miss him he misses me he comes back and the argument s over bills and his kids happen all over again. What if its the total opposite though? This also bothers me. It was to a point where I began to question everything he did and started looking through his phone every so often (which I know I should not have done). Then comes running back few minutes later. Hi Teri I know it sounds weird that I am sixteen and so young but if you have ever gotten that feeling like hes the one and you just feel so comfortable around him you would understand. But I had left town. Researchers in Attachment Theory call this ambivalent or fearful attachment. Im feeling really anxious but this article has given me some hope. theres this guy liked me and we both fell in love with each other but its been like that we were 7 months together. But I interpret that to mean using me. 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